Disruption and Violence

Things are getting bad. I'm pretty sure I'm slowly losing my mind in this place. Last night, I leaving one of my good friends a text telling her I was going to bed. While I was typing though, I heard something. Bells. Like bell bells. Not church bells but bells in a band. They were playing what sounded like a lullaby. I could hear people talking amongst it. I didn't recognize any of the voices but the song sounded kinda familiar. I finished texting and the sounds subsided but it only gets weirder. I started tearing up and almost cried for no reason. I couldn't contain myself, I openly wept for no reason at all. Once I slowed my tears though, I gained a mysterious bloodlust. This was beyond anything any of my depressions spawned before, and truthfully, it terrified me. I needed blood! Even just to see death and chaos would subside the strange beast within. Turning on my Xbox and actually playing it for the first time in weeks, I played Gears of War for about 4 hours. I made it to wave 40 before my fury ended and I could go to bed. Somethings very wrong with me, I don't think the depression stages are doing this anymore, I think I'm actually starting to lose grip of my mind. I hope this doesn't continue, I really don't plan to spend my future in the psycho ward...