Things have been getting bad for me. Really, really bad. I don't know why but every so often I go through a little negativity phase. I lose interest, lose energy, and all out become depressed. I hate it when this happens and usually I end up doing something self-destructive to fix it, but this time I tried a different approach and it completely backfired. I made a good friend that I really care about mad at me, I've got one worried about me, and one that's coming over to spend the night while I'm like this. Thanks to all this chaos, now I'm even deeper in the hole. I don't know what to do anymore, and I can't even urge myself to turn on the TV. All I want to do right now is sit down and cry. Everythings falling apart again, just like it does every time this happens. I'm just about ready to just shut off the Internet and go back to living without contact with others. It seems like I still can't talk right to other people so why bother trying anymore. I just wish I could tell my friend I'm sorry and have them understand that I mean it.
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