Everything's Going Dark Soon...

Nothing is going right. I try and try and give and give and all I ever get in return is abandonment. Despair. Anger. Frustration. It's all going downhill anymore. I have no hope and I sure as hell don't have a reason to live. I am SO TEMPTED to just end it all right now. I have nothing to live for but disappointment. No matter what happens I'm always going to be forgotten and left to die. And right now all I want is to be left to die. I don't have one good damn reason to keep going right now. God has forsaken me, my friends have forsaken me, and I'm again left with nothing. I cry and cry for help but there won't ever be help or anybody there for me. I'm nothing but fate's plaything, it giving even a little glimpse of light and taking it away to torment me. Everythings fading to black and fading fast and I'm ready to die and end all fate's joy of torturing me and end my eternal pain. Nothings ever going to change, it's always going to be this way. That which is destined to be alone, shall remain alone. And now that I see my true destiny as it really is, I have no reason to live for it. Nobody cares enough to help, nobody can ever help. Nobody's here to change anything, nor can they. I'm going to forever live this darkened life, with everything inside dead. My blood is cold, my heart is broken, my mind is scarred, and my soul is faded. Tell me, what have I to live for, if this is how life plays out for me????